2.07.2007

haiku is plural

animal man farms
swollen ma' singing the blues
smoke like a chimney


rock and roll singer
can't get you out or in
frustrated wholly


artist by the ocean,
never gets anything done, ever
an artist needs pain

11.28.2006

daydream nation

all of a sudden you've got to shout,
shout out out out out out out out,
but its neither the time nor the place,
and you've got a discriminate eye,
you'll die before you go back,
you'll promise yourself so many empty lies when you lay in your bed,
sporting a week long pair of jeans and an undershirt,
someday you'll be free of it,
someday you'll be the american dream,
out on the road with 387 dollars and 19 cents and a canadian quarter,
asleep in the dark somewhere and there's no hills far from connecticut or where ever the fuck you're going to transpose this to,
but you think those times have passed,
maybe you should just go to canada,
with three hundred eighty seven american dollars and 19 cents,
and return to them their quarter,
because the soda machines won't take it anyways,
and i'm so lost on the road to nowhere that its looking familiar,
one hazy adventure slowly drifts a day away,
and i'm crazy i know it,
yr crazy too, but you don't see, you don't hear, i don't feel,
man nothing about this can possibly be real.

10.30.2006

all about me (sometimes)

sometimes i'm the most deviant motherfucker i know.
i break all the rules,
and everyone i have ever known has been hurt.

In this case it'll mostly be period's and comma's,
but they're their own death wishes.

i think home didn't move anywhere,
but it certainly got a whole lot further away,
it certainly doesn't call to ask about my day.

i'm the only person i know who's happier to be fucked up than awake.
and i don't get fucked up to have fun,
i get fucked up not to feel and thats fucked up.

but when i meet a long haired child we'll be happier in the valley
and we'll sing for the sake of singing,
and we won't really worry anymore

10.01.2006

a little bit messy (and boy i feel testy)

quit smoking ciggarettes today
and suddenly i can feel the blood in my veins
if this is what its like to be alive
i don't ever want to be dead again.

quit smoking ciggarettes today
suddenly i feel just a little bit less insane
and i hear the world like it all at once started talking,
suddenly i can breathe the air and not just choke it.

9.02.2006

first though=best thought

so loud its deafening. the roar of the city is disturbing. happens everytime i get here. i get used to it then i die in silence when i leave, and i want a happy fucking medium. so drunk i could scream, and everything looks like fireflies, the speakers boom a report, and i ignore them. it sickens me so i leave. speakers speak their tune and i ignore them. they sicken me. and i want to lose my mind for bit but theres no one to drive, no where to go, and it seems like everything is more drunk than i am. rifle hands type meaning, slow it down, slow it down all the teachers said. i told them first thought was best thought and thats all i want to write. thats all i need to write, thats all i'm going to write. leave me the fuck alone and let me write better than you ever will, because you spend hours editing, minutes of work, and its just overworked, overthought and killed. everyone has a drink and everyone feels a bit better. i still don't understand. i don't know if i want to.

8.20.2006

you've got to keep writing.
just keep keeping on,
you've got all the words in your head still.
you've still got words,
so keep writing.

a little bit at a time
its coming so slow it kills me
anticipation is deadly
i'm wondering about the world war,
I'm wondering about love and all that jazz
i've been thinking about tea
and its lovely holiness
i'm not religous, i just like being high sometimes

listening to zappa in my living room
with a family i haven't seen in ten years.
and i'm tired of it
i want some time to be alone
i'm never alone
i need some time to think dammit
its been a full three months since i had any time to think

and its so quiet here at night. i always sleep
and i always wake up tired

5.23.2006

ain't dead yet

the jazzers have been talking their horns for weeks,
and no ones been listening,
this city always sleeps.
and the whole worlds wailing on their horns,
this city always, always sleeps.
sunday afternoon, and some corner coffee shop,
neon golden hipster elites,
this century has still got the beat,
this century has still got the beat.

some college kid reads bukowski the first time.
he gets it.
he really gets it.
yeah so he's writing so as not to go insane.

man. i'm insane,
i'm the only insane person on the planet who'll admit to it.
they should lock me up,
but man just give me a pen and paper,
give me a marker, i'll write the walls down.

this century has got technology.
silver screens, whirring machines,
this century has still got the beat.
this century has got hate,
the gays are still in hiding,
hiding in plain view,
for fear of the hate,
for fear,
someday they'll march on washington,
washington will feel the beat,
washington will feel the fear,
washington will feel ten thousand,
washington will fear the beat,
this century will hold onto the beat.


the hipsters all gather on the street corners,
they just sit around,
they'll listen to the city,
like they're the only ones who can hear it,
ahh but they certainly aren't
the runners, screamers, low downs, and sometimes the high ups

though they rarely take the time to bend down

yes even sometimes the highups can hear the city,
but the hipsters, in dark designer jeans,
with their finger on the pulse,
as if to plug the whole,
thats spewing the blood,
draining the city dry,
they think they're the only ones.

the walkers, talkers and dreamers hear too,
in varyin shades of color,

but their are listeners.
listeners keep the beat.
even when this city,
in its constant sleep,
even when it weeps,
they make sure,
this century has still got the beat.

4.06.2006

andrew. your manifest is too robust

andrew you're sinking fast,
oh andrew, of latter day fame,
hey america...drop a dime and blow a line,
every chance i get mom and dad,
write home

ciggarette smoke never tastes like candy boys.
i wish i

piano rifle fingers
keyboard whistles,
draft day,
we go to war with jitters,
mislead for years,
with the intentions of dying,
i left home for another land,
with the intentions of living,
i left home, to stay alive somewhere else,

how do you do, kind mr. killing machine?
yeah he was right,
yr still just a pawn in their game,
yr the antichrist oblivion,
textile bomb giant,
putting them in clothes long enough to enslave them,
yr the death of my generation.
and yr damn proud of it

2.27.2006

corny words i write when i should be sleeping. oh yeah. rhyme. heh

i listened to all the thinkers get shot,
I swore i was blind so hard i believed,
i believed so hard it came true,
and now i can't see,

i wrote more words than i knew,
i took vocabulary when i was younger,
all the teachers praised my spelling,
all the teachers in the world and not one knew the ending,

i grew up not to sleep,
man i grew up before i could sleep,
man i grew up and i never sleep,
if i'm an insomniac would you tell me?
if i'm dead would you dream me?

i took philosophy when i turned 19,
the teacher asked how i knew i was really me,
sometimes, dude, you just have to believe,
sometimes dude, believing ain't nothing you see.

2.20.2006

Happy Birthday Kurt

immortal in death,
thats reserved my dear friend,
You're either gonna burn or fade away,
you said it, not me,
you're a godamned american dream,

you're not quite that rockstar who killed himself,
no one has quite forgotten nirvana,
as much as they've tried to make us,
i know you were into the beatles,
but you had to be punk as fuck.

happy birthday.
i hope peace can find you.